What a reason to celebrate-Mother's Day!!! I love this day, not only because my kids have to be on their best behavior or they have to deal with their Dad, but also to celebrate the relationships between mothers and their children. Even as I changed poopy diapers and dealt with a tantrum because of chocolately fingers, I was happy because I have my children in my life.
I cried today though. I cried because I still remember the Mother's Days where I wanted so badly to be a mother, but was not. Those years are long gone now, but the pain still burns like it was yesterday. Everything on Mother's Day is difficult when struggling with infertility. The mothers get to stand up at church, while you are left sitting. The flowers are all sold out when you try to go buy them for your own mother. The family members and friends who don't know what to say to you. The expectant mothers who want to share their news with the world, but wait an extra day so they don't have to tell you on Mother's Day. And, although Mother's Day is a wonderful day to celebrate with the women who mean so much to you, it can also be a heartbreaking reminder of the cross many people carry in life. Luckily, there are many people there to help us carry our cross.
About 6 years ago, my nephew got me a beautiful rock for Mother's Day. I tried explaining to this 5 year old that I was not a mother, but he would not really listen. He just looked at me and said something like, "Well, you don't have your own kids, but you are still a mom because you really like kids and help us." I think he got it right. There are so many people in our world who may not have the title at "Mom" but are looked at as moms. Children see moms as people who love them with all of their hearts. So, to all of my friends out there wanting children of their own, know that you are probably a "mom" to many people who you love, take care of, and are kind to.
